Life Undefined

"Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself.
You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be, will end up good; what is not, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must just move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for."
-Grey's Anatomy




Perspective

Today was a bit of a reality check.

I was reminded that life is short and we aren’t in control of when it’s over.  We can control what we do with the time given us.

I’ve wasted so much time. On what? Good question.

I don’t want to be mediocre, I want to be great. Not “rich and famous” but GREAT.  I don’t want to ever look back and be like ‘what in the world was I thinking?!?!’

I’ve lost my passion. My passion for everything. I was asked today “Kimberly, what is important to you?” As I sat there and thought I truly couldn’t answer. Obviously my family and friends but what else? There is so much more to care about and what, I’m too selfish and petty to give a crap?

I have allowed myself to fail at life this semester for no reason other than pure and simple laziness.  I complain about it but it is my own dang fault.

Who am I now? I looked in the mirror and couldn’t answer. I know who I used to be and who I would like to be. I considered it a turning point, maybe too late I don’t know. I refuse to allow myself to be the person who has zero drive. Who expects everything to be done for her. Who half-asses her way through life.

I used to fight with all I had for something I wanted.  My problem became that I wasn’t even sure what in the hell I wanted anymore.  I never was one to give up just because it got difficult. So why did I let it happen?

I can’t answer some of my own questions but I do know this: I WON’T LET IT CONTINUE

I’m capable of more than I’m doing.

I refuse to let life pass me by.

Notes

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